She picked her usual spot with a full view of the tarmack. A glass of hot chocolate with a banana muffin, comfort food at seven in the morning before she boarded for a five hour flight. Today was one of those days when hot chocolate was needed, a masala chai or a latte would just not do it for her. And yes, it was a day for banana muffin and not a salad or a bagel. She was flying out after an oppressive week at work. As she sat there sipping on her cuppa choc, she remembered the first time they had had coffee together. It was at starbucks, he had quipped about how the cups were so large but were never more than half full. And she had condescendingly added, that it was as expected considering that it was infact starbucks. Today seemed different though, her glass was nearly full and her muffin extremely satisfying although her mind was weirdly unsettled. She had this feeling every now and then before something strange happened. She wondered what it was going to be this time around.
Page 69 and Friedman was detailing the strangeness of the Lebanese landscape, when suddenly she was jolted out of her middle eastern imagination by a hand from behind her that threw in a bookmark on her page. Startled and annoyed at the same time, she turned around and annoyance changed to absolute astonishment. Speechless for over a minute, she finally brought herself to ask him what in the world he was doing there, where he was going and where he had been. Too many questions, she did not know where to begin. He smiled at her like he always did, re-assuringly, and went around to sit beside her. They spent the next five minutes in silence, not knowing what to say or how to say it.
Five years, an affair, a sea change in career and many cigarette packs later, he had seen her again. Life had not changed much for her, except that he hadn't been in it and work had taken up so much of her time, she just could not do without it now. They had fought over the same issues too many times, compatability was all too often a bone of contention for them. But was it the fighting that ended it,she had always wondered. He knew why he had done what he did. He had to leave her then, had to take that job in Barcelona, it was everything he had wanted then. Ambition can sometimes take over so entirely, that there is no room left for tenderness and love. But she represented something that he had not seen or felt in years now, a sense of belonging. Sitting there with her brought back all those warm feelings of a perfect life.
She was recalling all the rehearsals she went through for this very day. There was so much she had planned to say to him, she had to give hima piece of her mind, but sitting there across from him, she could not bring herself to speak. Should she have said that he had no right to just walk out on her? Should she have told him how she had completely lost respect for him? Should she have just got up and walked away or should she actually consider putting it all behind her and being kind again. Knowing she had about fifteen minutes to finish this or start it before she boarded, she took another sip of the chocolate...what should she do?
